Time in a hurry

Its too fast, Slow down please. Like a speeding car, yesterday it was only winter now its autumn, I did not even notice the seasons change. I did not even notice time change. I only closed my eyes for a few and when I woke up everything around me was different. Slow down please. Because I'm all frozen and left behind. I cant keep up. Time is such a curse.

The ravens watch

I deserve nothing, What have I have done to accept your kindness?, The ravens watch because they know the horrors I've done. The ticks of the clock, The gears slowly moving I hear them. The sound of the rain, The wind hits my windows. Even the night knows, Because it wont let me rest. She has left, And you have left, Everybody has left. Loneliness stays beside me like a loyal dog. It makes no sound, But I know he is there, With his friend remorse, Us three are best of friends, an unbroken chain. The ravens watch me and look down upon me. because they know.

My bed (literally)

She would always be there, Day or night. If I go to her  she is always there, Always waiting for me. I could say I cant survive without her, Even in the coldest of night of the hottest of summer. She would be there always with arms open wide, She is my bed. But even she who is always there unlike most of my friends. She can never save me from the demons that lingers in my head. But she always comforts me, may it be sadness or happiness. She's there to share it. If she could talk I think she would also say I love you. When I'm tired or sick she is there telling me to rest. But still some nights where my head is not clear she cant seem to help. She's not perfect but I know she will always be there for me. Oh my dear bed. Just like my best friend loneliness, The bed is my mistress for the night is my lover. It loves to torment me. Lately even with my bed beside me. I find my nights sleepless. I know she is sad, But there is nothing to be done. I just lay here eyes wide open. Looking deep in the darkness.

The Girl

She kissed my tired eyes and whispered lush words to my troubled ears. She only had a smile, She held my face with her warm hands, Laid my head on her body. Wrapped her self around me. I could feel her sympathy. She hugged me, Hugged me till her shoulder was drenched with my tears. She held me as close as she can. Not saying a word but only rubbing my back. I could feel the sadness slowly fade away because she was absorbing it. Her hair had a beautiful smell, When I looked at her she would place a finger on my lips and hold me close again. she told me to keep closing my eyes, And she was right. Because the moment I opened them. She was not there, She was never there. Now my mind slowly drifts away. I feel the walls closing in. closing in this bottomless hole, Let me be left in silence. Goodbye.

Serenity

I miss the sound of the ocean, The sound of the waves slowly put me to sleep. But my sandcastles get washed away, It slowly fades away. I miss the sound of the rain. The pitter-patter on my rooftop is a delight, It is serene. I miss the sound of the wind, Under a tree I rest my head, watching the clouds above, As the trees sway the birds hang on the branches and happily chirp. Nowadays I only hear the ticking of the clock, My out of tuned piano breaks the silence. With a cup of coffee in my hand, I try hard to not shiver from the cold. It has been cold nowadays, I do like the snow. And how they fall onto my skin, Rabbits burrow. I do like every season. But no matter how much the season changes, I feel the same. Nowadays I have a smoke always in my hand or my mouth, Slowly fading away with no sound. Like the ashes of my cigarette. The wind is slowly taking me away. Far away in a distant land, with no sound. But only serenity.

Shiver

So I laid there on the concrete floor. Funny how it seems that the floor is much more comfortable than my bed. Where is my bed? I do hope the bus does not miss me. But I'm too weak to get up. Ill just crawl into this little hole, Sheltering my self from the snow. It is cold, Cold indeed but my skin does not feel it, It goes through it. Its my bones that are shivering, I feel cold, Give me a blanket?
All I see are feet, People are always in a hurry nowadays, Its like I'm near the ocean, Because all these wave of faces keep on coming. They are all in a hurry, Places to go, who knows where? They told me to take a picture for it last longer. It hurts every time I look at this piece of photograph because I remember the old me. Now I don't even dare look at the mirror. I'm scared of what abomination I would see. My head it dances with the wind. Its slowly fading away. What is it to be sane? But everyone is insane I suppose. who knows? Oh please wont you give me a smoke? its the only way I could day dream nowadays.

Wallflower.

I don't mind just standing here in a crowded room with a drink in my hand, Watching all the people talking with laughter, Sometimes they even step on my shoe and I say sorry. I listen to their stories, and nod in agreement. It can be fun to be a wall flower, Observing and watching, Just don't forget to water me. But I guess all flowers wither away, That's why you don't bother. I guess its not that bad to be a Wall flower, Biding my time. Drinking my wine. They sometimes pick my petals just for fun, I don't mind at least they got their amusement, It makes me feel useful. I got this smile on my face, or is it just a mask?

Running.

My Legs can't stop running, They can't stop moving, The problem is I can't control them. I always wonder where they want to go. But things seems to happen on their own. I know their there. But sometimes the sensation fades away. I look down and see them moving. And when I look up I'm somewhere that I have never been too. I guess I will let the breeze take me.