Thoughts of a Loner

Why are you trying to become so hollow?
Why are you deleting all these memories you worked hard for?
All this feelings you have had since you where born.
Why do you Linger to be in a place such as Limbo my child?

" Well maybe because I'm tired.
Tired of loving, My faint heart cant take too much of a beating any more
My eyes won't even drop a single tear. So I just stand in the rain and pretend.
Don't get me wrong. I'm drowning in sorrow. Deep inside, yes.
But all I'am is a shell of my old self. I want to forget.
Forget about everything. For hope only brought despair.
And being optimistic only gave me disappointment.
You see these memories, We made them and enjoyed them,
But for what? We only lose them in the end and beg for more
when our time has come."

-Thoughts of a nihilistic loner

Clouded.

Let me suffocate on your embrace.
Let me feel your soft kisses on my tired eyes.
Let your Tender Voice reach my troubled mind.
Don't let me fade away.
I'm buried deep in the snow
Slowly melting, Fading away like smoke.
The wind slowly dissipates me.
Turning me into the clouds above
Watching over the town.
Nothing but a spirit
Trapped in his own mind.
Smoke filled air, Was I even here?

Winter Solace.

I looked at the calendar and noticed it was November.
Sometimes time feels like it has stopped.
But in truth it flies by really fast.
The Snow falls.
The roofs white as a mountain top
I stepped out side and went inside my blanket of snow
Its weird. The snow feels warm and comfortable
I'm buried in this solace of snow.
maybe ill just melt and be forever forgotten
Time is ticking away but also my sanity.

The Last Dance.

Hello my dear, You should really stop crying. Your make up is starting to get ruined. 

You don't need to worry. Ill be here beside you.

I'll Hold you close and hug you tight. 

Your hair smells so nice, Even if it is coated with rubble. 

It makes me remember the day that I met you.

Your lips, oh how red they are. Soft and gentle.

Looking at your and having you this close to me.

Heart to Heart. I have you wrapped around in my arms

I wish we could stay like this forever.

I almost forgot where we were.

This town we live in. it was never great. But it was a beautiful.

Don't worry my dear, No need to listen to the screams and cries of the people.

Whatever happens ill be here right beside you. 

There is nothing we can do. I know you are tired from the running

So lets have this last dance my dear. 

We can dance till the sirens stop. 

We can move our bodies to the beat of the gunfire. 

You can just close your eyes and listen to the beating of my heart.

I might be bleeding but do not worry my dear. Rest your tired eyes

Hold on to my hand. When we open our eyes we will be in heaven

Surely they will accept us, I do not know what we did wrong. 

But it seems the world hates us.

This is a goodbye. 

But let us leave while dancing under the smoke filled air.

I do wish the bombs never came. But I guess this is our fate.

This is our last dance my dear. Hold on tight. And remember 

"I love you forever".

 

Hollow.

And there I was, Laying down on my comfortable bed. It felt like vines where pushing me down.
I did not want to move. Nor had the energy to.
I looked at the clock It said 6. But I did not know what it was. Was it morning? or was it night?
All I knew that it was winter. Winter always has long nights. So I was unsure.
My mind was Perplexed. I was worried but not sure why.
My nights and days were restless. I was Emaciated.
Ennui also took over me.
I did not know what to do. but all I wanted to do was rest my Tired eyes

Marionette

Let us dance my dear. While our tears flow down our tired eyes.
Chaos is what you wanted, Is it not?
You look at me all confused.
We both know you stitched these strings on my skin.
Playing me around like a marionette.
But in the end it was you who was the main attraction
the stage was set with all the right actors.
Now as the guitars and violins echoes through the hall
we dance beneath this sorrowful moon.
The flood is rising my dear.
But I know you plan to stay behind
I'm sorry but I cant help it
Only a grin I can show but no remorse.