Hollow.

And there I was, Laying down on my comfortable bed. It felt like vines where pushing me down.
I did not want to move. Nor had the energy to.
I looked at the clock It said 6. But I did not know what it was. Was it morning? or was it night?
All I knew that it was winter. Winter always has long nights. So I was unsure.
My mind was Perplexed. I was worried but not sure why.
My nights and days were restless. I was Emaciated.
Ennui also took over me.
I did not know what to do. but all I wanted to do was rest my Tired eyes

Marionette

Let us dance my dear. While our tears flow down our tired eyes.
Chaos is what you wanted, Is it not?
You look at me all confused.
We both know you stitched these strings on my skin.
Playing me around like a marionette.
But in the end it was you who was the main attraction
the stage was set with all the right actors.
Now as the guitars and violins echoes through the hall
we dance beneath this sorrowful moon.
The flood is rising my dear.
But I know you plan to stay behind
I'm sorry but I cant help it
Only a grin I can show but no remorse.

Nostalgia

Nostalgia. what a great feeling to have. And at the same time I hate it.
It makes me remember things about the past.
Nostalgia only gives me remorse.

Freedom. .

Oh how lucky the birds are, Flying in the endless sky.
Lucky are the fishes in the vast ocean.
With that kind of freedom, What would you do?
I'm a Bird but trapped in a cage
I'm also a Fish. But trapped in my own aquarium

Save?

When you can't save yourself, Can someone else save you?

Regret?

I do not wish to be a time traveller, For everything that has happened, Happened for a reason.
I do wish I could undo some mistakes I have made. But the road only goes forward.
Regret lingers in me. And its eating me deep. I don't know how long I can cage the animal in my head
My chest is about to explode.  All I can do is take a deep breath. And look ahead.

Human?

My mind is hazy, My body is shaking, My bones are shivering, My eyes empty like a dark abyss. underneath this skin, there is a human. But why do I feel like I'm dead already. or maybe I'm lost already.